…I’ve listened to this song now about a dozen times. I have it on repeat. I’m in a mood.
Craig’s asked me about a thousand times tonight if I’m mad at him, and I’m not, I swear, but he went out after work to a happy hour goodbye party for one of the people he works with that’s leaving, and what was supposed to be only an hour, turned into five. He had me drop him off at this thing, he didn’t want to drive in case he had a couple drinks-he’d heard they were roadblocking tonight-and so I’ve been waiting around all evening for him to call and say he’s ready to be picked up. Still not mad, though it would have been nice to be able to soak in the tub for awhile, which I would have been able to do at my leisure and in peace, if I’d known he was gonna be gone for five hours. Instead, once he got home, I soaked in the tub about 30 minutes, being constantly interupted. Not very relaxing. And yet, still not mad.
Why the mood then, I bet yer asking…..hmm, I dunno. Just because maybe. I’m tired. I feel a flare coming on-my toes and fingers hurt.
A passing thought just now…I write better, and am more creative when I’m miserable. However, I’m a very happy person now, but have lately been writing more…could the writing just be bringing on a random mood?? Who knows…it is a thought though.
I used to think when I was single and I had finally given up on finding “the one,” that I would go move to Key West, or New Orleans and have lots of cats, and write, and waitress, and read tarot cards on the street for extra dough. Very romantic and bohemian, I know. *rolls eyes* Craig saved me from all that. He is my soul mate, I know this without a doubt. I love him so much.
I think tonight was hard on me because we are together all the time. We very rarely do anything apart, we prefer it that way. We really enjoy each other’s company, and have often said how it’s just not as fun when we’re not together. I missed him tonight. I was lonely. I honestly didn’t know what to do with myself. Silly, huh?
*yawn* Tired now.