For our anniversary, Craig sent the most beautiful roses to me at work! Six a pinkish-peach color, and the other six ivory, they are absolutely gorgeous!!! Craig’s parents also sent us a very lovely bouquet of roses, lilies and snapdragons. We went out to dinner as well, and ate yummy Italian. I had seafood alfredo, and Craig had chicken scampi. All in all, it was a wonderful day to go with the great weekend we had!
Saturday, we took Bishy to Webster Park, and we actually got him to get in the creek with us, and wade around in the water. He’s always been scared of the water before, but this time after a tiny bit of coaxing, he followed us right in. Then, we couldn’t get him out! We all had a blast, hiking around, and playing in the water. We also played quite a bit of Frisbee over the weekend, trying to teach Bishy how to catch it. He hasn’t quite figured it out yet, but he’s getting there. Saturday night & all of Sunday, we spent watching the extended versions of Fellowship of the Ring & Two Towers. We’re going to try and watch the extended version of Return of the King tonight-but it may get put off until the weekend, depending on how we feel-it’s been really hot the last couple days, and today it’s supposed to reach 100. I’ve been hearing excessive heat warnings on the radio since yesterday. Sunday, we also went and got burgers and ice cream at Friendly’s, and happened upon a car chase on our way there.
I passworded “My Truth” last night after finding out some information I did not previously know. In light of this new info, I want to add some more thoughts to “My Truth”-when I’m done, I’ll take off the password.
I found out last night that someone who had presented themselves to me as true and honest, forthright and honorable, was in fact, none of these things. Granted, this person was there for me when I clearly needed someone-a guiding hand, a parental-type presence-BUT, when a person is, in retrospect, shown to be clearly false, deceitful, and manipulative-it really taints their previous actions, regardless of how “good” they were. Was their good character previously just a front, covering up what lay underneath? Maybe. Was I manipulated by their good graces, and used because of my previous connections to others we both knew? It’s looking that way.
I’ve experienced more than my fair share in my 37 years-lived through things as both a child and as an adult that no person should ever have to go through as well as experienced a lot of things not many others would even dare to. I’ve always felt that every experience-both good & bad-has played a role in making me who I am today, and that I am stronger for having lived through it all. I am a survivor. I’ve always felt more worldly than others, as well as a bit jaded at times. I have huge trust issues, and huge abandonment issues-things I am constantly working on healing. I set near impossible standards and expectations for myself, as well as those around me, and find I am constantly disappointed in other people for not being as loyal, or as honorable, or as kind, or as sensitive as I think they should be (to name a few). Despite all of this, I have somehow hung on to this insane, almost child-like naiveté that believes everything & everyone is just peachy. I lead with my heart, ignoring intuition & psychic prowess at those times when I should most be listening. When will I ever learn?