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oneday I know, I know. I start posting again only to just disappear without a warning. Didn’t you know that dropping off the face of the earth is one of my best things? Really. It’s true.

Actually, I had intended to just step away for a few days to enjoy the holidays, but as is the tradition in our family, drama-rama happens.

The Saturday after Xmas, we found our water heater had been dying a slow and agonizing death in the basement, probably for several days, as the basement floor was covered in a few inches of water. Luckily, we have a guy and he was able to come over pretty quickly to help take care of things. Craig and Bob popped over to Home Depot, picked up a new water heater, and within a matter of hours, we were all good.

That following Monday I got a call at work from my dad’s neighbor that the ambulance was there and my dad was on his way to the hospital. They weren’t sure what was wrong, other than he had fallen and cut his finger pretty badly. Turns out he had had a heart attack and a stroke, and had fallen twice, dislocating his shoulder as well as lacerating a finger pretty badly. I had taken Wednesday and Friday off to take advantage of the scheduled holiday, and so instead of enjoying a small vacation, I ended up driving in a panic down to Utica to care for my dad. I’ve been going down every weekend since.

His shoulder has been repaired and he’s had a pacemaker put in. He’s now in a stroke recovery facility where he will stay for about six weeks. After that it’s back to the hospital for a bypass. He’s in pretty good spirits for the most part, and seems a lot better since they’ve installed the pacemaker. He has none of the facial lameness that typically accompanies a stroke, though he does have some speech slurring and he’s having issues walking and keeping his balance.

I am exhausted, physically and emotionally just spent. I’m bummed because I have all these things I want to accomplish this year and I haven’t really been able to focus on anything except my dad and just getting through each day.

Prior to this happening, I was doing really well with eating healthy foods, counting my cals and exercising when I could. I’d lost quite a big chunk of weight and felt crazy motivated. That has all fallen to the wayside at this point, and I’m struggling to find my focus again. I’m really disappointed in myself, though I am not giving up the fight!

On the flip side, with all of this stress, I, surprisingly, am not flaring!!! Yay, Orencia!!!! It’s finally kicked in! *knocks on wood* I’ve even been walking about barefoot, something I could never do before—my feet would hurt too badly. All in all, I’m experiencing very little to no joint pain & swelling. I’m really excited and hope it continues! Kick-ass!!

I will try to post more often now that things are finally settling down a bit. I reallyreally need to get back to where I was before the holidays. I miss me. Oh, and I had a crappy birthday. So did my Dad.



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sookieeyesOkay, so, I’m going to be thirty nine this coming January. I can barely believe it. I don’t feel that old. I don’t believe I look that old. But nevertheless-39. Which means forty…40!…is right around the corner. Yikes.

There are things I’ve recently decided I need to accomplish before I leave my thirties and head off into the unknown territory of forty. Goals, if you will, to achieve throughout the year. A lot of them are things I merely want to improve about myself-both inwardly & outwardly. Some of them are things I’d like to do, some are things I’ve always wanted for myself.

1. Lose “the weight” for good. I want to be curvaceous, yet svelte.
2. Make exercise fun, instead of a chore.
3. Buy a brand new wardrobe.
4. Finish my novel & find an agent.
5. Take a fabulous vacation somewhere exotic.
6. Excel in bellydancing.
7. Start work on my short film project.
8. Stop being scared.
9. Try at least one new type of cuisine.
10. Take lots of pictures.
11. Try to be a less aggressive driver.
12. Perform at least one act of kindness a day.
13. Be a more thoughtful, kind, grateful person-go the extra mile.
14. Love myself more.
15. Acknowledge the Divine every day.
16. Put care & thoughtfulness into every action.
17. Finish a videogame. (Ha!)
18. Swim with dolphins.
19. Spend lots of time with my new little niece, Lexi—be a wicked cool aunt!
20. Make more of an effort towards my sister in law.
21. Forgive.
22. Hate less. Love more.

So, I think that’s enough to tackle for one year—whadda you think? *g*


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